Na Jaaney Kyon…I Have No Clue…

These verses in Hindi that dance along below…even as they offer themselves devotedly at the Lotus Feet…are sentiments that flow in adoration of the Lord…an impassioned communiqué to the Eternal Beloved…perhaps an echo from every heart that seeks from the Beloved One…that tangible something…even though it is aware of forever basking in the Divine Presence…it reflects and resounds so unswervingly…irresistibly – by Sri Jullie Chaudhuri.

Tum ho kareeb, Oh! Sai Merey,
Yeh mujhe hai yakeen,

Phirbhi, 
Na jaaney kyon,
Yeh dil Tujhe doondhta rehta hai har kahin…

Suraj ke har ek kiran mey,
Payaa Tumhara hi prakash,
Chamakti hui chandni ney ujwal kiya mera talash,
Badaltey huay har mausam ney,
Dilaya Tumhara manmohak ehsaas,
Har pal Tum hi Tum rehtey ho kareeb,
Yeh hai mera yakeen,
Phirbhi,
Na jaaney kyon,
Yeh dil Tujhe doondhta rehta hai har kahin…

Oh! Sai merey…
Tum pass ho,
Tum shwas ho,
Tum vishwas ho…
Garajti hui badalon mey,
Goonjti rehti hai Tumhari sannidhi ke liye anginat pukaar,
Kaaynaat ke har anu mey chhupa hai Tumhara Pyaar,
Bijli ki lakirein urjit kartein hain mera abhaar,
Samay gawa hai…keval Tera naam hai mera adhaar,
Aseem Phoolon ki mehkti khushboo,
Hava ki halki maadhyam sey leheraye baar baar -
Sirf Tumhara anokha samachaar…
Na jaaney kyon aisa mehsoos hua,
Ki barish ke asankhya boondh,
Bangaye merey ashkon ki dhara,
Tum tak pahunch gayaa paigaam mera…
Har pal Tum hi Tum rehtey ho kareeb,
Yeh hai mera yakeen,
Phirbhi,
Na jaaney kyon,
Yeh dil Tujhe doondhta rehta hai har kahin…

Na jaaney kyon,
Tumhey pass paakar bhi…Tumhara hai intezaar,
Tumhare liye yeh dil har waqt rehta bekaraar,
Dekha mainey sub sansaar,
Na jaaney kyon,
Sub kuch hotey huay bhi…kuch na payaa,
Anubhav kiya ek ajeeb andhiyaar,
Kan kan ney kiya ekmatra Tumhi ko sweekar,
Oh! Sai…
Bhavnaon ki koi seema nahi,
Aradhana ki koi kami nahi,
Har pal Tum hi Tum rehtey ho kareeb,
Yeh hai mera yakeen,

Phirbhi,
Na jaaney kyon,
Yeh dil Tujhe doondhta rehta hai har kahin…
Na jaaney kyon…

‘je ne sais quoi…i-do-not-know-why…though i am aware You are constantly by my side, yet…i seek You in all that is around me… clueless-am-i…it-is-beyond-me…You are with me…even so…i search for You in all that i encounter…in all that i see…’ 
This sublime communication in essence conveys thus to the Supreme Beloved:

where each ray of the Sun reflects only Your brilliance…and the moonbeams support and illumine my search for You…the seasons as they charmingly change attract the soul with delightfully enchanting awareness of You; …though firm is my belief, oh, Beloved One, that You are ever present…however, the mind scrutinizes all that it comes across…only to find it reflects You; …the roar of thunder simply resonates a cry for Your closeness…Your love is hidden in each atom of the Cosmos…where streaks of lightening express my gratitude…Time is witness to the fact that Your name is my sole support and refuge…the breeze gently wafts the limitless fragrance of innumerable flowers – for me it is but an indication…glad tidings from You; …when the countless drops of rain seem to effectively resemble and portray the steady stream of  tears i shed for You…i understand that at last the depth of my message has reached You…

Though You remain close by, Beloved Sai…yet, i await Your Presence…the heart perpetually displays a restlessness for You; …having traversed the worldly path…surrounded by myriad material luxuries…i know i have gained nothing but the peculiar darkness of despair…every cell of the being desires and accepts nothing but You…Oh, Sai…my feelings for You know no boundaries…nor does my adoration have any limit…every second i am aware that You are nearby, yet i have no clue why…i seek You in all that is around me…persistently…ceaselessly…continuously…
Na Jaane Kyon…i have no clue…

II Samastha Lokah Sukhino Bhavantu II